What I Ate Wednesday
I love seeing what other people eat. It’s incredibly pleasurable to see someone’s day all laid out in food and hear their thought processes and associations around their meals. It took me a long LONG time to be able to love looking at my own food, But today I am so happy about my choices. To me, they feel balanced, intuitive, delicious, and made with pure love. I am so lucky to have transcended my eating disorder to arrive at this place with food. I never take it for granted for a second.
I want to share my food with you. Not to brag, not to make you think you should somehow be eating what I am eating, but just to give you a little slice of my life. I am sure this wasn’t every morsel that went into my mouth this day, but it is a documentation of the things I wanted to share.
Breakfast on this day started with pie.
I have never done this before! I am totally a green smoothie type of babe, but as I was pulling out my kale and my bananas I kept nibbling at my leftover strawberry apple crisp. I wanted it, but somehow felt that I shouldn’t have it.
“Why don’t you feel like you should have it?” I asked myself.
“Because it is dessert” I answered.
“But there’s nothing in it that is unhealthy, nothing in it that would be bad to start a day with”
I looked deeply at my pie, and I realized that any time I am thinking I “should” or “should not” eat something based purely on what it is (not how it will make me feel) than that’s leftover eating disorder voice. Fuck that voice! I ate my pie.
After a session with a client and a walk to the grocery store I had worked up quite a lunch appetite. What followed was a gigantic salad (romaine, cauliflower, red cabbage, snap peas, cucumber, smoked tofu, nutritional yeast, baba ghanoug, salsa and a crumble of Tastymakes salt and vinegar crackers and tortilla chips.) My special dudefriend happened to be making a green smoothie, and tossed me the leftovers like the sweetheart he is. It was INCREDIBLE and when I said “WHY IS THIS SO GOOD?!” he smiled and said “the secret ingredient is coffee!”. Go figure.
Another client meeting and some hours later I was starting to feel cranky. This is almost always a reliable sign that I am hungry, and since it was not quite dinner time I made myself some homemade almond milk, a scoop of Tropical Tango Vega Energizing Smoothie, and a half a banana blender mix. It hit the spot.
In the past, I have been an “eat-the-exact-same-thing-every-day” type of person. These days, I have been working on tuning into my body more and trying to hear what it tells me I want to eat. I usually work out before dinner, and my body ROARS for food, so preparing a supper ends up being super delightful and intuitive. On this day however, I had taken a rest day. I knew I was hungry, but it wasn’t in that NOW NOW NOW type of way that makes choosing super simple. I honestly meditated for a moment before I chose this strange combo of foods for my meal.
It included red cabbage, avocado, sauerkraut, salsa, nutritional yeast, and Beyond Meat. Do you know about THIS COUPON?! It is for a FREE package of Beyond Meat and is good until May 31. I want to be honest: I don’t know how I feel about my consumption of this product! It has a great nutritional profile in terms of macronutrient ratios (IE tons of protein) but it is much more processed than anything else I enjoy. Truthfully, its delicious and for me, digests quite well. DAMNIT BEYOND MEAT. your tempting processed ways seduced me. also your free-ness.
No day is complete without 85% chocolate dipped in homemade peanut butter. Divine brand is local to me and my absolute favorite.
SO that’s it! I came, I saw, I ate, I conquered. It was a very delicious day.