Thanks so much for bearing with me while I announce thing-after-thing-after-thing lately. Between my Reset and Restore program (an awesome program designed to lead you into the holiday season. Why not start with a good backbone of 2 weeks of supported healthy, unprocessed, vegan, gluten, and refined sugar free eating?!), leading the new Oakland No Meat Athlete Run Club, and the five course dinner I am co-hosting, I find that even *I* am confused about all the things I say I’ve got going on.
I’ve got a lot of ideas, what can I say?!
Here’s the most important announcement of all, though:
THE SUPERTASTY ANTI-INFLAMMATORY E-BOOK IS HERE!
here’s a sneak peak:
Zucchini Noodles with Coconut Ginger Sauce
Banana Jalapeno Smoothie
Grilled blueberry bok choy salad
After many weeks of working on this book, it is finally an actual thing you can buy in the world!
As you may have guessed, this book is focused on anti-inflammatory foods. It has six chapters: ginger, turmeric, chillies, berries, walnuts/almonds and greens. Each chapter includes a breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack, and dessert recipe featuring the section’s ingredient. All recipes are totally unpublished, and created by me and Melissa of TastyMakes.
There’s a lot of love in this little dude, and I totally hope you buy it so you can make our recipes and tell me what you think.
This first week of Autumn has treated me well. I’m over my illness, and my spirits are back up. Yesterday I had an absolutely killer workout, and I felt awesome through the whole damn thing (first time that’s happened in awhile!). I’M BACK, WORLD! Back, and ready to crush it.
I made an exciting decision to mix up my exercise in a couple of different ways that I want to tell you about. One way is to start thinking about participating in 100 days of yoga challenge (I’m talking like five minutes of yoga, not 100 days of hour long yoga classes!). The other way is signing up for my very own custom made fitness program from Christy Morgan/The Blissful Chef.
I am in contemplative mode about the yoga thing (I like to think for a long time before diving into things, even if they are generally inconsequential) but I paypal’d my first payment to Christy yesterday, so that’s on lock! (And yeah, I thought about that move for roughly four months before I actually did it. What can I say? I am who I am.) Although I am clearly very dedicated to my fitness, I have felt a little aimless lately, and I am REALLY excited to work with a personal coach to give me feedback/mold me even further to be the vicious ladybeast I aspire to be. Even a health coach needs a health coach sometimes and Christy is running an absolutely incredible deal (one month FREE!). If you are at all interested in someone making a personalized fitness plan for you, there’s pretty much no reason not to choose Christy. (Also, I think she has a space or two left. What are you waiting for?)
What else? Are you participating in the mass exodus from Facebook over to Ello? If so, I’m on there as @thelacydavis. Find me so we can….I don’t really know what. I’m sure Ello will have some stuff to do in the future, but for now I am happy to just look at it’s relatively pretty interface.
On that note! I have been reading a lot of things this week that make me happy, and as usual I want to share them with you.
I do not know Thomas McBee, but I run across his work on a regular basis, and I always love it. In this article, he writes to the audience of Esquire magazine about his transition from female male, what he learned and what he has discovered about masculine vulnerability. I love the way he talks openly to the reader, and how he talks about gender in such a tender way.
Here’s an excerpt:
“I keep asking, “What makes a man?” I think it’s about integrity. I was thirty when I transitioned; I had a whole life before that. So how can I, in this life, in this body, have a sense of consistency and integrity, with self-respect for my past? How can everything feel like it aligns all together? The longer I’m in the world, the longer I think I was born in the right body, it just was a transgender body. I wouldn’t perceive myself in ever having been wrong in who I was.
When you are in a position of privilege, you see yourself as an individual, whereas other people see you as part of a system. It’s your responsibility as a guy to realize you don’t live in a fair world, and it’s not an unfair request for you to be more cognizant of that, to be an ally to the women around you and not rely on women to make an effort to fit in your world. For example, if you’re on an empty street with a woman, you should probably give her more space.”
This is a small snippet that was sent to me, based around an interview of 8th grader Vionna Peng about her body image. In the interview Vionna talks about her accomplishments in speech in debate, how she survives through middle school by building up a community of her peers, and how dieting plays a role in the social caste system of MIDDLE SCHOOL.
She says: “When you can’t control something you’re like, ‘Oh well, I can control the calories, I can control how much weight I lose.’ And I felt like, maybe if I just lost 3 more pounds by next week, I can sit with the cool kids at lunch. So it was just very never-ending pressure ”
Does that make you want to cry? Me too. She says this SUPER casually, like it is like the most normal thing in the world, and i guess the thing is- it kind of IS the most normal thing in the world for teen girls to feel like they need to change their body to be “okay”.
Luckily, Vionna goes on to immerse herself more in speech and debate, and it seems her focus switches from counting calories to using her experience to talk about building self-esteem. I LOVE a self-directed teenager, and I think her talk is a potent reminder that diet culture is everywhere. If there’s one thing I learned from teaching high school, its that teens are always listening. Let us all be awesome examples for the Vionna Peng’s of the world.
Writing a novel. It’s like, this thing that I am destined to do, but have not (fully) done. I wrote a first draft of a 500 page novel, then couldn’t stand to look at it last year. This year I had a book proposal that seemed like it was going! to! get! published! and then…….it didn’t. I know I will write a novel one of these days, and this article keeps my eye on the prize. (I think I can, I think I can…..)
Hey, so maybe this makes me old as hell, but in myyyyy day, MTV had MUSIC. MTV 12 is basically non affiliated with actual MTV in every way, but hey! They have music videos! Made by bands I care about! And Dawn and Misty are hilarious! I love MTV 12 and its throwback to the MTV format of my youth. I would say this 45 minutes is pretty much the best 45 minutes ever.
I love this article. It was written by a self-identified poor woman named Linda Turado who works her ass off, is a single mother, and either barely makes ends meet (at the time of the article anyway) or doesn’t make it at all. It lays out in perfectly plain detail all the ways in which people without money are basically slated to be unhealthy. (Is there a healthy, balanced meal on earth that competes with the price of 12 microwaved burritos for 2$? I really don’t think so.) My health is such an incredible privilege, in a multitude of emotional and physical ways, and that is a systemic FLAW. Just as all people should have access to a healthy body image and positive self-esteem, all people should have access to fresh and healthy food. How can I ask people to put a significant amount of energy into healthy habits when it isn’t possible or functional for them to implement them? Something I have no answer for, but I am definitely thinking about.
Have a wonderful weekend! Looking forward to talking to you Monday <3
A few weeks ago I got an email from a far away friend that asked a very plain and honest question:
“Do you really think you’re recovered enough to tell people how to eat?”
There was no malice in the question, but quickly my friend tried to tell me in a million different ways that she didn’t mean it to come off as mean, offensive, or off-putting. I wasn’t offended in any way, though.
A) I am not that sensitive
B) I don’t have a lot of reason to feel defensive about the topic and
C) I’m sure other people have wondered the same thing. I think it makes perfect sense to discuss this, considering where I’ve been, and where I am now.
So. I have had eating disorders, all of them. I have emotionally eaten, stress eaten, restricted. I have compulsively exercised. I have been decidedly anorexic and completely bulimic. Negative food, exercise, and body image obsession completely ran my life. It took me just as many years as I was in my eating disorder to claw my way out of it. I have made absolutely no secret about the battle.
In a sense, I am absolutely still obsessed with my eating and my exercise. I highly prioritize the consumption of high quality foods and make really damn sure I am eating enough food to support my activity levels. It is extremely important to me to not ignore hunger signals or live by food rules that make my actual life no fucking fun.
Unfortunately, no fucking fun isn’t cut and dry. It can mean a lot of things. It means I don’t turn down restaurant invites from far away friends just because the food isn’t ideal, but it also means I don’t eat things that are going to make me feel physically bad. Fried shit makes me feel bad. Gluten makes me feel bad. A lot of sugar makes me feel bad. We are talking about my body here, not my brain.
I don’t tell people how to eat that don’t ask me to. I am often asked what I eat, and I share because I think it is valuable. I am a woman who exercises hard, and eats a lot of nutrient dense food. I don’t count macronutrients. I don’t weigh or measure my food. I eat enough. I don’t let myself go hungry. Once a client asked me how many calories I eat per day, and I counted and the number was about 2400. That’s right, – I eat double what those women’s magazines say is appropriate to consume. I think it is VITAL that more people offer alternative perspectives. (And no, I don’t regularly count calories. I counted once.)
I will always be an obsessor. I am obsessed with my creative practice. I am obsessed with feminist art. I am obsessed with writing, and reading, and my friends, and rollercoasters, and my partner. I am absolutely 100% enthralled and obsessed with my business. And yeah, I am obsessed with my food, my body, and my strength. I am PROUD of what I’ve done with what I was given, because at a point I let the obsession turn dark, and it almost killed me. My obsession these days is an example of me thriving WITH my OCD brain, (yep! That’s my official diagnosis) not in spite of it.
I think my eating disorder is exactly what makes me qualified to set an example of how to eat. Because I know, really intimately, what it’s like to restrict, and I know I’m not doing it. I know what it’s like to skip out on plans because I feel I have to eat at a certain time that doesn’t fit in that schedule, or exercise in a certain way. I know what it’s like to make myself exercise when I’m sick. I am willing to bet that these things that I mention will always be my instinct, in fact. But every single day, time and time and time again, I watch unhealthy thoughts arise, and I choose to do something different.
My consistent daily choice to be well does not come without work. I think someone who’s never known this struggle couldn’t possibly tell you how wonderful it is to defeat it.
I consider the entirety of my content on Super Strength Health to be a love letter to my audience and my recovery. I am still obsessed with food, but now because it fuels me. I am obsessed with exercise, because it strengthens me. Every chance I get, I let myself be publicly astonished and on-my-knees grateful for my positive body image. Because, THAT, my friend, is hope.
And really, if you don’t like how I eat, that’s okay. How I eat is for me and my fuel. How you eat will be for you and yours.
Illustration by the amazing Joanna S. Quigley