Yesterday morning my new room had the perfect lighting pre-run. I had to capture it, not only because I felt excited about what was ahead for the day (run, client meetings, lunch with my dude, recipe formulation) but also because these kinds of morning moments are very seriously when I feel my best. It’s super quiet in the AM hours around my house, and as I tinker with my coffee and my water and my pre-workout getting ready routine I am more often than not super stoked. It seemed worth noticing.
A lot has been going on lately, like some seriously beautiful and epic shit. As I mentioned, I have moved into a new room in my Oakland house, and for the first time in the entire four years of dating Kett, we are sharing a room space. (We have lived in the same quarters for the entirety of our relationship, but never the same room). The room is giant, so spacious in fact that I have more room for my things than I did when I lived in the shack. I still don’t have very much stuff and definitely don’t mind living tiny, but it is kind of nice to spread out a bit more, to have wifi in my room, and to never wake up in the middle of night dreading the reality that I have to go to the bathroom.
It has been an adjustment to share a room, because just logistically, I go to bed at ten and wake up at six 99% of the time. Kett is much more likely to stay up until 3am and sleep until noon. Both of us are having to figure out how to navigate our different schedules while being in the space and its interesting to watch our communication grow and deepen with the process. I am happy to be marrying this dude! (Even when he wants to watch YouTube videos about Scientology when I am trying to sleep).
When I turned 31 this year, I promised myself that this would be the year I was in a punk band.
I’ve wanted to make punk music since I was 14 years old, discovered veganism through hardcore bands, and spent hours and hours on Greyhound busses and as the passenger in my friend’s cars so that I could watch bands scream about it. I am not musically inclined instrumentally, but I’ve always had the fantasy that I could frontline a screamy band and call it a day. It took more than half of my life to make the fantasy a reality, but luckily this is the year that I finally swallowed the nay-sayer inside and kicked it with a microphone.
First, I did both guest vocals and some song writing for my friends in the band Yearbooks. My vocals are on song one of the linked album, and my friend Brian and I wrote the lyrics together. Because I think they’re relevant to this blog’s content, I will include them here.
Wake up to a whisper, a voice invades my head
Shake it off, I move it away
Turn the other cheek, wake up to a thought
Full of dread, I draw it close
Look in the mirror – Stare in the mirror
Tell myself, Again and again and again
How can I say it so that it sinks in?
How many times should I say it ’til it really sinks in?
No one stares as hard as me
No one says what I have said
No one is as mean as me
No one scars me as deep as me
This plague my companion – feeds and starves the voice
takes away from me- gives me nothing
What will it take to suffocate
this vicious voice that lies inside of me?
How can I be sure?
remember to recall
how can I move past
“my body is so wrong”
My body is not wrong
My body can’t be wrong
(I feel) like my body is so wrong
My body cannot
really be this wrong.
HEAVY, RIGHT? Despite the bleak tone, writing this song was really empowering and good for me, and knowing that my male friend deals with the same dark shit that I have was extremely illuminating. The negative messages that we as HUMANS get about our bodies creep all over everyone. There is still work to be done, and as a body positive health and wellness coach, I am excited to do it.
Moving on, I also did some guest vocals all over this Anopheli album, which has totally blown my mind. The talent of these musicians is ridiculous, and my vocals sound like an evil witch. As you may imagine, I am INTO IT.
I know that both of these bands will not be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s cool! I feel that it is important to note that although I am all : “food! fitness! recovery! veganism! hooray!” I also have other worthwhile things going on now and again. It is worthwhile for folks to acknowledge the full breadth of their personalities, myself included. (I would be lying if I said I wasn’t narrowly focused at times).
I was on the radio last week! One of my awesome clients introduced me to Keith Langhorn, host of the show Food for Thought on KNSJ. Food for Thought focuses on food (duh!) and I love the fun and lighthearted tone of the broadcasts. In this show we talk about fitness, recovery, farmer’s markers, anti-inflammatory foods and more. You can totally listen to that here:
What have you been up to!?
I haven’t done a weekend reading post in quite some time, mostly because I found that I was beginning to stress about what I would share each week, which effectively took the joy out of writing at all. WHOOPS.
Because I spend a lot of time both striving to crush it at life and also trying to let myself be imperfect, I have simply been blogging less. I don’t love it, but I do love allowing myself the grace of being a very busy human being until the inspiration hits.
This week I read a TON of wonderful, bad-ass, brave shit written by women and queer folks and I knew I was going to be getting back on the share grind as soon as I could. (An aside- I have this fear sometimes that if I stop doing something and I lose momentum with it I! WILL! NEVER! DO! IT! AGAIN!. This attitude kept me from taking rest days from exercise for years (WHAT IF I TAKE A DAY OFF AND NEVER MOVE MY BODY AGAIN FOR ONE DAY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE?!!??!) and turned me into a bit of a catastrophizer. I am taking this moment to announce that I used to post a weekend reading list each week, I stopped ’cause it got overwhelming, then I got inspired again this week and picked it back up again. GOT THAT BRAIN? GOOD.)
ANYWAY. Onto the links!
Once every five years the USDA updates the Dietary Guidelines for Americans, and this year we are seeing LESS influence from major food corporations and MORE friendly suggestions that fit within the frame of a vegan diet. The proposed guidelines rely much less heavily on meat and expressly state that a vegetarian diet is beneficial. That’s huge!
Despite these advances, there is both room for worry and room for improvement. Once the proposed guidelines are announced, the public (including big business with lots of money and lots to lose) has time to put in their input. This article tells you how you can express YOUR opinion about the guidelines, and I sincerely hope that no matter what your diet, you take the chance to use this opportunity. Remember, these guidelines directly impact all federal programs, including school lunches and WIC. Even if they don’t directly make a difference in how you eat, they are extremely important culturally.
This was an absolutely wonderful rumination on the benefits of taking the goals out of running. For Sara, her aim with running is simply to run, she’s done it for years all over the world, she hasn’t gotten any faster, nor does she intend to. I LOVE THIS, both because it’s wonderfully zen but also because I love when people take the wind out of the sails of both the patriarchy and the weight loss industry.
First of all, look at this woman. Completely adorable while being 100% bad ass. I would LOVE to look like Gabby.
Second of all, this article really hits a nail on the head for me. When I first started lifting weights, I got bigger. Like, a lot bigger. Pre-weights I was doing as much cardio as humanly possible, restricting my food, and sometimes throwing up. It was NATURAL and REASONABLE that I got bigger because my shift in exercise inspired a huge confidence and empowerment boost that allowed me a little fucking breathing room. Enough in fact, that I LET my body gain weight.
I got bigger on purpose.
Today, I love my body, and although I have definitely lost some of the initial weight I gained when I started lifting weights, it is still noticeably larger than when I was a cardio queen with an eating disorder. I have defined muscles and big ass quads and I fought for this strong beautiful body, and I aint bummed about it. When I hear women say “I don’t want to get bulky!” I used to feel a little offended, but now I step aside from what others want, and take a peak into what I want for myself and my frame.
It turns out, I want exactly what I have. And from this article, I can see Gabby does too.
I fucking love that.
I love the contrast I have going on here. The Seinberg article exalts goallessness in running, while this article by my friend Caitlin, gets into the nitty gritty of learning that the key to success in endurance events is getting psychological. I have SO MUCH respect for the two very different approaches to running, although my personal approach is kind of neither of the ones discussed.
Isn’t it awesome how varied opinions can all be valuable and valid?
Yeah, I thought so too.
In this article Caitlin talks about mental toughness, re-writing her story about herself, staying in the moment, embracing the power of positive self-talk, keeping perspective and welcoming discomfort. I have totally used every single one of these in the first year of starting Super Strength Health, so the article resonated deeply even if not in an athletic sense.
Also, Spoiler alert : CAITLIN QUALIFIED FOR BOSTON! You go, gurl.
Bitches Gotta Eat is one of my favorite blogs for pure unbridled LOLZ.
In this article, Sam discusses a few quick and easy meals for folks with tiny ass barely functional kitchens. Most of the meals aren’t vegan, although some tweaks could get them there, but I basically give zero fucks because although I am not necessarily going to make the food, I am totally going to laugh my ass off at the way she talks. If you need a little comic relief, please hop right over to this blog, sit back, and indulge.
You’re worth it.
See you next week!
Lately, my life has been moving very quickly. Between seeing clients, making meal plans, recipe testing, writing, keeping myself healthy with awesome food and exercise and blogging, I feel like days are gone in the blink of an eye. I’m definitely not complaining- things are actually straight up amazing- but I am making an effort to slow myself down. Inspired by the weekly love lists on Bonzai Aphrodite, I have started bringing my camera out a bit more, stopping a little more often to try to smell the proverbial (and literal) roses around me.
Like Ferris Bueller says: “life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.”
I have been vegan for most of the past sixteen years, but it wasn’t until I listened to Rich Roll podcast #93 with Sharon Palmer, RD that I actually decided that maybe it was time to get a B-12 supplement. Feel free to message me if you wonder why I think it is important.
I baked a cake, it tasted like heaven and included vegetables.
Prepping for that post workout life, courtesy of Vega Sport in chocolate. Peanut butter, because duh.
Meal plan recipe testing! Plantain flap jacks, roasted red pepper soup, roasted garlic and coconut quinoa, kale salad with toasted almonds and shaved cashew parmesan, creamy olive oil mashed cauliflower, and miso glazed eggplant.Until next time!